swim girl, swim.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Today as i was relaxing in the pool,
i saw 2 kids having their swimming lesson.
looking at them jumping into their not so glam PJs,
throwing on the not very comfy caps & goggles.
A feeling of nostalgia overwhelmed me.
the days when we had swimming lessons every sunday.
how we sturggled to keep our PJs on as we swam.
esp the pants, we had to tie them real tight.
& how i was always threatened by Uncle Ishak,
to cut off my ears & throw me into this dark scary room,
cos' i was always either not listening or crying non-stop.
& to think he really did throw me into that room.
my only memory of then was bawling endlessly=P
thank goodness my ears are still intact,phew.
of cos' i was young then & dreaded swimming lessons.
but as we grew older & moved on to the higher levels,
swimming lessons were fun=D
those good ol' days.

anyways back to the 2 lil kids.
i was watching them for a good 15 mins?
as they swam the laps,
being the elder bro, he led by quite a bit..
the girl was kicking so hard to ensure she didn't fall too far back.
esp wth the instructors constant:
"Girl kick harder KICK HARDER!!"
i felt so stressed & scared for her!
the risk of getting kicked in her face by her bro*gulps*
but she just kept going,
inchng forward bit by bit.
the bro then got ya-ya cos' he was "better".
he decided to rest at the end of each lap!!
but the lil girl went on,
soon she was half a lap faster than her bro!=D
& he was at the back panicking,
anyhow kicking (w legs bent, wrong.) hoping to catch up.
the girl just swam on calmly.
you go girl!!!=D

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到不了。。

Monday, June 29, 2009

我找不到， 我到不，
你所谓的將來的美好。

so last night marked the end.
i admit i cried to sleep.
& i felt like shit.
but to my surprise,
i woke up this morning feeling fine.
a little pinch, im single once again.
i did lose a great one.
but no matter how great, he is not the right one.
so why bother to continue fighting.
and be so self-righteous (like he said).
so what if i did win this war?
i have nothing to gain.

so i had the morning to myself, to reflect.
i flipped back to all my said-words.
i am one stubborn girl, so true.
now i think i understand how he felt.
my words can be brutal, very.
always complaining about people not listening.
but when i get heated up, angry, emo & all,
do i listen? no.
i just shut down,
so good luck to the party on the other end.
anything just to avoid getting proved wrong.

then when i have my problems,
i think i am superwoman.
all my problems seem so trivial beside the others.
why should/how can i burden others?
they have better things to face & do, don't they?
so alicia don't be a brat & whine about your so-called issues,
just be strong and face it yourself.
yeah that's what i tell myself.
till things are collapsing, crushing..
i still hold on,
people don't need to get affected by my shit.

ah ha!! so maybe all these led to the buit-up tension.
all your fault, alicia chung.
stop blaming others, when YOU are responsible.
Everytime you point your finger at someone,
there are 3 pointing back at you, remember?

issues checked.
reflections checked.
decison checked (by him).
presents (from him)? in a box, somewhere.
presents (for him)? to the dump? pending.
actions? since decision is made.
its finalised, no more hurting him under my clutches.
so recharge, learn from my lessons, move on, have fun.
when i find my Mr. Perfect Right,
i shall fall in love again.

note to you:
actually there are still some things i don't undrstand..but what the hell, u have already decided, so no point harping.anyways sorry for all the crap i put you through, & thank you for allowing me to learn such valuable lessons about myself and what im truly looking for..Like i told you earlier, you will find a girl way better than me, good enough for you, and appreciate you for you..You probably hate me more than anybody now & feel that im the biggest bitch..or do i even exist now?but oh wells, im sure u will enjoy ur hols..have a blasting time..

終点却是我永远到不了。
cos' it was never meant for me.

Labels: me, random

just care-less, no?

Friday, June 26, 2009

read this somewhere..

is it human nature
to fuss over those who don't care (or care less)
& don't care (or care less) about those who really care?

i think it is somewhat a yes.
just care less then.

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buzz me, not.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

hey
hi
how is your studies coming along?
ok
alrights
study hard
ok
take care
you too
ok

i am done talking to a stranger you.
ENOUGH.

以为自己没那么爱你，
所以会落到今天这个地步。
可是心怎么会感觉阵阵的酸痛？
试过主动跟你聊，
可是越聊就越绝望。
我觉得我真的离你越来越远。
握得越紧，伤得越深，
我应该放手吗？
我不要再因为你而哭了。

how i wish to have somebody by me now,
to have a shoulder to lean on,
with a warm comforting hug,
to assure me that everything will be fine,
& its just a nightmare.

for the record, i have 7 mozzie bites now.
buzz off blardy mosquitoes,
please let me off tonight (at least),
don't make my night any worse.
thank you.

Labels: me, rants

a happier post=)

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

first time we had a sisters night-out!!
if only i didn't feel unwell, our nightout will be perfect=(
yeah, i fell sick that night,
& was like a dead-cat (in my sister's words)
slept the whole of saturdayaway =S
anyways, can we have another night-out soon?!=P

other random photos!!
my elder sister is knitting me a scarf for denmark!!
so sweet right?Awwwwwww..

granny cooked beehoon for my lunch on one of the days=D
& this is how well-fed i am at home!
this photo is not doing any justice to the actual serving size.
honestly, it was huge. like a mountain.
i took 1hour plus to eat that up!!
but it was surely delicious=)

this is the Crazy Sheepy Game that i mentioned before.
finally solved 1 out of 55 solutions..
54 more to go!!ooommp!
btw its a game for 6+ years old=S

Labels: family, friends, me, random

spark from the missing swimsuit.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

the weather is hot darn hot,
i want to go for a swim.
BUT i can't find my swimsuit!
i've looked EVERYWHERE [in my cupboard],
but its NOWHERE!

just asked the permanent fixture to look for it,
cos' i got too irritated & angsty.
but im sure she can't find it too.definitely.
cos' she just put our clothes in whichever cupboard she feels,
dosen't even bother if its wrong.
so now i wonder how did DADDY'S TEE end up in MY cupboard.
like HELLO! isn't it obvious that there is only ONE male in this house!
sheesh.

"but i can't find it" with that "innocent" look & [ewww]grin.
i just knew that was coming.*grumbles*

i still want to swim.

Labels: me, rants

i caught the bug.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

the fever bug that is.
i absolutely hate being sick!!=(
went down to timbre on friday with my sisters.
had a slight headache,
but i knew something worse was coming my way.
i didn't even finish my drink & we decided to head home.
& i crashed on my bed almost immediately.
that night was bad, HORRIBLE.
woke up about 20 times in a night,
with thumping headaches that just refuse to go away.eeks.
& i think i spend more than 20hours of yesterday sleeping.
felt fainty, things went blurry, close to darkness.
[i think cos' i didn't eat anything, except for the 1/3 bowl of noodles at 5.30pm]
the whole day just went by fuzzy woozy.
terrible feeling i must say.
fever bugs should seize to exist & leave us all alone!=(

thank goodness, i feel way better today.
except for a slight headache & weird feeling tummy at times.

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im just this close..

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

i just want to scream right into your face NOW.
**** YOU! =(
thank goodness my life does not revolve around you.
if not IM DEAD.
because of you i give others the wrong impression,
that im pissed with them.
because of you i vent my fustration on innocent ones.
[if you are one of those innocent dears, im very sorry]
now im not looking forward to seeing you in january.
want to know me better?
the first thing you should know,
the hard & harsh way dosen't work on me.

today is a good day.
went to gym, worked-out alone,
slept in the sauna for close to an hour.
[yes, literally SLEEP.]
had facial, cleared my super clogged face, fresh.
now as im sitting in my living room & typing this,
looking at my family; mummy, daddy, granny, my sisters..
im so glad to have them by me.
we may just be sitting around watching tv silently,
(with the occasional comments & conversations)
but just their presence brings ease & comfort.
home sweet home, family sweet family=)
now the 5+months being away from them is settling in.
bahhhhhhh.

i don't think im going to find an intern anymore.
im quite glad i didn't get the sales job actually,
totally not a direct sales person=S
probably take up those weekend assignments with rey?!
or blogshop?!
oh i should spend more time gymming,
maximise my membership before i suspend it=P
also some time catching up with my friends,
just before i leave for denmark.
some coming back from overseas, and others here=)
& of course the rest of my time for the family..
bumming at home, dinner with the folks..i like.
tomorrow i shall go collect my visa, gym, home sweet home..
& then most likely meeting up with my dearest family unit for a drink=D
long time since the three of us hang out together!!
toodles.

the promise i made to you, i will keep.
no matter how tiring it gets,
cause like i told you before, it matters.
actually i got to admit i have done hardly anything for you,
& i get helpless & fustrated at times.
but i am still working on it.
it aches watching you wither day by day.
promise me, get good rests whenever you can, SLEEP EARLY!
sometimes i wish i had huge wings so that i can protect you under them.
cheer up, poo.

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happy birthday rey!!!

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

happy belated (8th June) birthday girl<3
my dearest sloping shoulder scandal is 21!!!=D

had to coax her out for "shopping" today..
had to make sure she didn't insist on going home early..
had to walk and walk and walk around vivo (3times?!?!)..
had to talk on the phone sneakily..
had to pretend i wanted to eat beancurd & marche..
had to lie to her about changing my california member to true fitness..
had to act ditzy be myself & ranted on about whatever that came..
had to drag her to see the (yet-to-exist) IR..
had to....
everything just for a little surprise for the birthday girl=D

to my dearest scandal, rey!!!!
i know its nothing big or lavish..
but you mentioned that our turn-up for gatherings were dwindling..
so this is just a small surprise from us to you.
not everybody, but definitely more than the last few times=P
hope you got a tad surprised there..
& also enjoyed the date with me!!!=D

p.s. photos are with yinghui, link them as soon as they are up=)

Labels: birthday, friends

******* ***

Sunday, June 7, 2009

is actually..our very own PARENTS' DAY!!
my cousin decided that yesterday was a good day,
so she gathered all the cousins to cook up a storm,
just for the daddys and mummys in the family=)
& it was meant to be a surprise!!

certain hiccups here & there,
some had their own dinner plans..
some thought there was nobody going back..
but it was still nice!!
great food, hearty laughters, fun games, fabulous company<3 we should have more of such mini self-declared occassions!!=D

now i got to get back to my Crazy Sheep Game
(it actually tickled our brains quite a bit last night!!=S)
till i solve at least one solution, goodbye.

just what did i just got myself into?!
you just proved everybody out there right, but me.

once again you make me cry tear.
im getting tired too.
you have your ego, i have mine too.
i told you it is impossible,
but ...
im trying my best, just to see you smile.

Labels: family, rants

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3:57 PM

running everywhere, me loves<3

Saturday, June 6, 2009

running about everywhere..
best decribes the last couple of days.
churning out my CV..
job inerview at PAYA LEBAR(!!!) [2nd one next week=)]
short trip to vivo [the earring is pretty right?!=P]
timbre @ OLD SCHOOL<3
ECP with my dearest JC-clique<3<3<3 [19th june!!!?!?]
shopping for ******* *** =P
tuition [my tuition kids are hilarious!!=D]
visit "old" jo at the hospital [oh & made a new friend, "HI KEVIN!!" if he ever reads this, which i which i highly doubt so=P]
.
.
.
then tennis this morning was a big bloob..
besides my serves [esp when i was facing the sun!!]
i played like crap. CRAP=((((
all most of the balls just hit into the net!!*hmpf*
maybe its the 4 blisters that hindered me from performing?!=S
better pull up my socks for next week and thereafter,
time to gear up too, training is gettng tougher *pantsss*

yay elder sis is finally out of the bathroom,
MY TURN TO SHOWER!!!!
yes, i am drenched from pespiration as im typing this,
& stinking like hell too!!!=P
.
excited for today's ******* ***=D
hope its a success!!
revelation of ******* *** in th next post!!=)

bathing time!!toodles.

Labels: family, friends, training

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11:23 AM

adidas sundown

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

i was not feeling any emotions in particular.
30th May 2009, 8.30pm.
marked the start of my 2nd 10km race.

i felt totally out of form though.
after pigging out so much overseas,
with all the prior training attempts failing,
i knew i was in for a "good" one.haha

at the beginning, i trotted alongside my younger sister.
1km, 2km, 3km...then my legs decide to disobey..
yeah, super lousy right?

so i paced myself along..
For various reasons that kicked in so convenietly,
it felt like it was going to be a long race.
i tried counting lampposts to distract myself,
but i lost count after getting dizzy looking at the lights.
i tried singing along with my little poddy,
but each song seem like it was never ending.
so i settled with observing people
& pushing mysef to overtake random ones i set my eyes on.
i knew i didn't want to be guilt-stricken later,
so i knew i could must not quit the race.

my target was 1h 15min not longer than my 1st run.
as i dashed through the finish line,
i whipped out my ipod for the time...
9.58pm..1h28mins.exactly the same as Standard Chartered!!
[i shall remain ignorant about the seconds=P]
i know its a totally not fabulous timing,
but i was still happy, consdeing i felt so much shittier this time.
my younger sister covered the distance in 1h20mins!!
happy for her!!=D

Team Pink.

each of us had one different coloured lightstick, & the pink ones represented a team=)

headed down to HV thereafter for Crystal Jade.
Cantonese food never fails as comfort food after a race.loves.

Next run, Shape Run 09'!!
this time i will be running with alot more people, including mum!!=D
im determined to start training,
& meeting the target that i have set out for myself!!=)

p.s. NZ got to wait=S

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